I had Dan training yesterday and I had a chance to talk to Master G. I told him that I was in a better place in my mind. I'm not 100% over myself and my "wannas" but I'll get over it. There's a saying in the dojang--check your ego at the door. I'm not stupid enough to think that I'm as good as the Dans I trained with. I know I have MUCH to learn, but they were there to help me. I worked with Mr. L and had a lot of fun learning. He was so serious but such a good person to learn from. He made no bones about grabbing me during the Ho Sin Sparring. His goal was to grab me and my goal was to get out of his grip. In the past, I would have tried to avoid any sort of thing like that and would have made excuses for trying to get away. I had no option to do that. It was a serious training. It wasn't a "you have to do as little as possible". I like the challenge. I promised Ms. S that I wouldn't flinch (much!) when someone hit me. She warned me that I would be taking hits, but not to say "Ouch!" because they would exploit it and would work on me for that. I'm pleased to say that I didn't flinch (much!) about taking grabs. You know what? I'd be ready to do it again.
I am going to be working on myself. I want to get myself to the point where I'm not afraid of being me. I'm not going to be a whiny person if I can avoid it. I rather like myself the way I think I'm becoming. I didn't like the whiner I was. I've since been working on how I think. I'm leaving the "I don't..." outside the dojang. If I need help, I'm going to have to put aside my ego and ASK.
I do NOT know the Korean (hangul?), but darn it, I WILL learn it! I can now count to six in Korean...I'm working on that. I'm working on terminology. I'm not afraid to ask now. I make mistakes and now can laugh about it. (Ask my classmates about the 7 Class Tenents that turned into 8! There was extra credit for knowing the 8th one according to Master F!)
I still have much to learn. In terms of my learning, I'm just starting out on my journey in BTK. I'm feeling a lot of love and exasperation from my classmates. There are days when I'm sure they want to whap me upside the head, but you know what? I don't think I'd blame 'em for it!
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Sunday, April 12, 2009
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Thursday's thoughts
One of our cars is related to Lorraine's computer.
It died tonight. This is the second time this month the car has died on us. The first time, I was at karate. Tony had come to pick up Aidan and his car died, so I had to give him my keys while I took class. That night, we got the car jumped for $20.00 (not the $85.00 the dude was originally going to charge us!) and Tony took it home. That saved our bacon. He took the battery in to Auto Zone and had it checked out--it was "fine" according to them.
Fast forward to tonight. Tony called me from work and said "I'm taking the car to Goodyear. It died again. Someone here gave me a jump." Hooray! He walked home from Goodyear. It's a good thing the weather was cooler.
Goodyear called and told him that it was a battery issue. I had to tell him "I told you so!" since I'd told him that it was the battery when it first died. Ms. S suggested that...this IS Texas and extremely high temperatures will kill batteries. hahaha!! I had to laugh when he told me what it was.
$150.00 later, we've got a new bttery in the car. It really didn't take them that long to resolve the car problem. Makes me happy.
Of course, since the car died and Tony had to get to a meeting tonight, I missed my class. I guess I'll live. I'm not going to be overly grumpy. I'll just spend some time on Saturday doing forms outside. It'll be a good thing to do.
Before I left the old martial arts school, back when I was a "instructor" (I say that loosely because I only taught 2 classes by myself), I was planning on running a class outside. I stole the idea from another blog I spend time reading. He was talking about training outside. That's an idea I like. Still need to try to get that tried out one of these days. I'll go outside and do it myself. Then I can't be "busted" for teaching.
I'm a bit bummed about my weight. I've been fussing at myself all week. I didn't eat cleanly this week--last night we had nachos for dinner. Tony and I have gone from each of us eating a plate a piece to sharing one plate, and he eats the lion's share. Unfortunately, the chips have salt in them and any time you even HINT at salt near me, my body acts like it's the Sahara Desert. I seriously retain water. I gained a half pound overnight, despite 90 ounces of water! Ugh. Not my favorite thing to see. Need to work on that. I either can't eat chips (boo, hiss) or I need to up my water. That'll thrill people at work no end...they already make rude comments about me leaving my desk. Just what I don't need! DB has already reminded me once this week that I need to keep up with the water. He told me the other day that he'd drunk 2 litres of water by the time I'd barely finished 30 ounces. I've got to work on that as a goal too.
Maybe I need to figure out how to create an interactive chart to put up on my blog so that people can follow along when I'm drinking water and they can nag at me (nicely, of course) until I drink more.
It died tonight. This is the second time this month the car has died on us. The first time, I was at karate. Tony had come to pick up Aidan and his car died, so I had to give him my keys while I took class. That night, we got the car jumped for $20.00 (not the $85.00 the dude was originally going to charge us!) and Tony took it home. That saved our bacon. He took the battery in to Auto Zone and had it checked out--it was "fine" according to them.
Fast forward to tonight. Tony called me from work and said "I'm taking the car to Goodyear. It died again. Someone here gave me a jump." Hooray! He walked home from Goodyear. It's a good thing the weather was cooler.
Goodyear called and told him that it was a battery issue. I had to tell him "I told you so!" since I'd told him that it was the battery when it first died. Ms. S suggested that...this IS Texas and extremely high temperatures will kill batteries. hahaha!! I had to laugh when he told me what it was.
$150.00 later, we've got a new bttery in the car. It really didn't take them that long to resolve the car problem. Makes me happy.
Of course, since the car died and Tony had to get to a meeting tonight, I missed my class.
Before I left the old martial arts school, back when I was a "instructor" (I say that loosely because I only taught 2 classes by myself), I was planning on running a class outside. I stole the idea from another blog I spend time reading. He was talking about training outside. That's an idea I like. Still need to try to get that tried out one of these days. I'll go outside and do it myself. Then I can't be "busted" for teaching.
I'm a bit bummed about my weight. I've been fussing at myself all week. I didn't eat cleanly this week--last night we had nachos for dinner. Tony and I have gone from each of us eating a plate a piece to sharing one plate, and he eats the lion's share. Unfortunately, the chips have salt in them and any time you even HINT at salt near me, my body acts like it's the Sahara Desert. I seriously retain water. I gained a half pound overnight, despite 90 ounces of water! Ugh. Not my favorite thing to see. Need to work on that. I either can't eat chips (boo, hiss) or I need to up my water. That'll thrill people at work no end...they already make rude comments about me leaving my desk. Just what I don't need! DB has already reminded me once this week that I need to keep up with the water. He told me the other day that he'd drunk 2 litres of water by the time I'd barely finished 30 ounces. I've got to work on that as a goal too.
Maybe I need to figure out how to create an interactive chart to put up on my blog so that people can follow along when I'm drinking water and they can nag at me (nicely, of course) until I drink more.
Sunday, November 04, 2007
Another new start
I got good and disgusted with myself this past weekend. I'm still thinking about it and mentally whacking myself upside the head. I had a gain. Not just a "small" gain, but to me, a HUGE gain! I gained 6 pounds in a week and I was furious with myself for it! I decided to stop ignoring my journal and my exercise and get back on track. Yesterday I tracked points and did reasonably well. Today I tracked points, but when it came to eating, I don't think I made good enough choices. For example...5 whole wheat saltine crackers is 1 point. 10 is 3 points. I had 15 of them. 10 at one time, for lunch (with cheese, 3 points per slice, two slices) and then 5 for a snack, with cheese, another 4 points there. Dinner was 5 points out of the "WW Turnaround Program Cookbook". I had milk, which put me over because I didn't have a standard serving. I had 12 ounces instead of 8 ounces. I used 4 of my flex points for the week, so I'm down to 31 flex points. I would prefer NOT to use any of the flex points! I am not in enough control to prevent myself from routinely using those points. I would blow through them in a hurry if I wasn't in control. Therefore, my thought is to NOT use the flex points.
I'm also working on drinking more water. I haven't drunk nearly enough this weekend. I know that. I will work on that as a goal for the week. My goal is to drink 2-24 ounce glasses of water a day at work and at least 1 more at home after work. I also need to plan on snacking at work but measuring everything I eat so that I control that too.
By monitoring everything I ate yesterday, I saw a loss of 1.5 pounds, so some of it could have been just "normal" gains. I don't think I'll see a loss in the morning, but at least I know that I'm having to journal. I'll see what happens at the end of the week.
I'm also working on drinking more water. I haven't drunk nearly enough this weekend. I know that. I will work on that as a goal for the week. My goal is to drink 2-24 ounce glasses of water a day at work and at least 1 more at home after work. I also need to plan on snacking at work but measuring everything I eat so that I control that too.
By monitoring everything I ate yesterday, I saw a loss of 1.5 pounds, so some of it could have been just "normal" gains. I don't think I'll see a loss in the morning, but at least I know that I'm having to journal. I'll see what happens at the end of the week.
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